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10 October 2009 @ 07:24 pm
"My Aim is True" IshiHime vignette by debbiechan  
First, a reminder that Ishida's birthday is coming up November 6 and you should all be lining up to spank him to submit your entries for the big art and fic contest here on bleachness that day:


And now, guess what? I wrote something in order to keep from chewing my hands off while waiting for spoilers for next week's chapter. Quickly beta-ed by nehalenia and dedicated with love to dbnext as a direct bribe for IshiHime art. Also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY enychan , MY FELLOW ISHIDA MANIAC.

The following story is 800 words and perfectly G-rated. I wanted to write my IshiHime healing scene before Kubo-sensei wrote his. If he doesn't give us one, I'll always have fanon. If he gives us one, I'm sure he'll outdo me the way he always does.

My Aim Is True

by debbiechan

Disclaimer: I don’t own the characters of Bleach; Kubo Tite invented them.

Description: G-rated vignette written in anticipation of the manga’s return to the dome above Las Noches. At this writing it’s been six months since we’ve seen Ishida, and everyone’s been imagining a healing scene for him. This is mine, written on the eve before spoilers to chapter 378. Oh, and if you don’t know the allusion in the title, it’s from Elvis Costello’s “Allison” (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tI4Qel8qvW0)

Thank you to Nehalenia for the quick beta.


for Chris, yes this drabble is a bribe for art

Ishida lies inside in the glowing orb and tries not to over-think his situation.

Let go. Trust her.

Timing is everything. Speed is crucial. The slower the speed of a projectile, the more it will drop over the course of its flight, and Ishida knows too well that if you give yourself too much time to solve a problem, you will sink before hitting your mark.

You will over-think, sink even lower, and end up flat on your back wondering why the hell you ever woke up that morning to take on the responsibility of being human.

His father’s offer: I’ll restore your Quincy powers on the condition that you never associate with Shinigami again. As difficult as it had first appeared, that dilemma hadn’t stalled him.

Increasing the draw weight of the bow increases arrow speed. Ishida had put all his mental strength into deliberating, but then, in one moment, when he saw Hirako Shinji put his arm around her, he knew.

I have to protect Inoue-san.

All the others, even that oaf called Asano Keigo, rallied to defend their friend from the outrageousness and insult of Hirako’s intimacies. Ishida had felt the deep emptiness of not having Quincy powers, the shame of not being able to add his voice to those looking after Inoue-san’s honor.

He knew right then his intended aim and what path to follow.

His aim had always been about protecting Inoue-san, so when it came time to break his vow to his father and steal some weapons, he did that easily.

When it came time to take help from the Shinigami monster who had desecrated his grandfather’s soul and destroyed so many Quincy lives, Ishida did that easily too.

A bomb is not a noble weapon. A Quincy uses a bow and arrow.

The bomb had exploded and with it, a semblance of Ishida’s pride. He had faked his aplomb: Mala suerte. I pity you. Las Noches was full of traps and humiliations. He wouldn’t fall like Yammy, like a stupid weight or a failing arrow. Ishida was determined to rise….

And then Kurosaki telling him to shield Inoue-san with his body as if Ishida needed to be told what to do. Ishida had set his sights already; his path had been so clear once but ….


“Don’t look so worried,” Inoue-san says and holds her palms against the golden light. “This won’t take long. I promise.”

What she doesn’t understand is that he doesn’t want her to bother with him. He’s finished. He’s broken. He’s dying. There are others to attend. She needs to stay alert, and he can’t protect her from inside her healing orb. He can’t do anything. She is too kind to leave his side, but she should be on her way.

I’ve gone as far as I can go. Kurosaki and the others will bring you back. Leave me alone.

Random thoughts are shooting through his mind. After the anesthesia he injected himself with began to wear off, the pain had streaked around his body in a similar way--no goal, no meaning, no aim or control.

Heavier bows are more difficult to release… Faster arrows are more susceptible to uncontrolled oscillations, harder to shoot with accuracy….

There’s been no pain since she enveloped him in her healing shield so maybe her powers can anesthetize him but ….

She is looking at him through the golden shield with a sad, strange expression.

Let her try. You wanted her to save Kurosaki, didn’t you? And the hole in his body was bigger than any of your wounds now. He was dead and you’re merely dying. Let her save you.

The healing globe seems to grow. Or maybe that’s his eyesight failing. Or an illusion of Hueco Mundo light. Earlier, Ishida wasn’t this dizzy from actual blood-loss.

The globe glows brighter; its parameters become less transparent; golds and yellows become blinding whites.

He is falling.

What to do now. Where to go from here. How to control the trajectory.

I love her, he realizes.

The arrow has been let loose. Flying, flying beyond his control.

Ishida closes his eyes and lets the warmth flood his body. He can not believe he is being so thoroughly healed. He can not believe the power of her healing.

If only he could hold this feeling forever, the trajectory suspended, no end in sight.

I love her, he realizes with the tiny understanding that he is not falling.

He is forever flying.



pony_rocks: pic#84544780pony_rocks on October 11th, 2009 01:04 am (UTC)
Awww, Uryuu! ♥
_debbiechan__debbiechan_ on October 12th, 2009 01:47 pm (UTC)

I'm dying to see him. Spoilers, spoilers hurry hurry. If he's not in the manga this week he will be soon!
luminous85luminous85 on October 11th, 2009 01:33 am (UTC)
I love the way you illustrate with words. I could feel what he was thinking, seeing as if I were seeing it through his eyes. I imagine Ishida being "one" with Inoue for that brief healing moment is as close to her as he believes he will ever get. Of course we hope that's not the case. Very well done, debbiechan!! <3
_debbiechan__debbiechan_ on October 12th, 2009 01:49 pm (UTC)

Thank you. One in the healing globe--it is a very intimate connection if you think of it that way. I find it curious that Ishida hasn't been healed by Orihime yet in the manga--he's healed her or fixed her up with bandages but maybe Kubo is saving the scene for something special...

oh I hope so.
nehalenia: ishida 352nehalenia on October 11th, 2009 01:40 am (UTC)
I love this just as much as the first time I read it, and you already know I adore the way you used the arrow metaphor. This is so much win!

C'mon, Kubo, give us a healing scene! (And if no healing scene, then more angst please.) ;)
♀*La Muerte Chiquita*♀la_kalaka on October 11th, 2009 03:57 am (UTC)
And if no healing scene, then more angst please.) ;)


(no subject) - nehalenia on October 11th, 2009 04:17 am (UTC) (Expand)
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(no subject) - _debbiechan_ on October 12th, 2009 01:47 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Have Fun Storming the Castle!annieroo2 on October 11th, 2009 03:26 am (UTC)
This is so very lovely. I adore the way Ishida comes around to the realization that he loves Inoue.
_debbiechan__debbiechan_ on October 12th, 2009 01:49 pm (UTC)

Thanks. Did you get your package?
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schweinsty: Ishida Taken Abackschweinsty on October 11th, 2009 03:35 am (UTC)
Aww, that was so sweet :). I love how you write Ishida - he's so wistful under that calculating exterior.
_debbiechan__debbiechan_ on October 12th, 2009 01:50 pm (UTC)

Yeah, that's what's so lovable about him. Closet woobie boy.
♀*La Muerte Chiquita*♀: Ka chanla_kalaka on October 11th, 2009 04:01 am (UTC)

AAAW, thanks for the congrats Debbieeee :************ i felt that fic like a present too xP thanks to make me smile with ishihime ficcies *33333*

_debbiechan__debbiechan_ on October 12th, 2009 01:50 pm (UTC)

I'm glad you had a nice bday week--I hope Kubo makes it nicer. SPOILERS PLEAAAAASE HAVE ISHIDA.
(no subject) - la_kalaka on October 12th, 2009 03:23 pm (UTC) (Expand)
MT: IshiHime- Feel our wrathdbnext on October 11th, 2009 04:44 pm (UTC)
Ahaha, it's been so long since I've had anything IshiHime related dedicated to me XDXD And you have always been my favourite IshiHime writer.

D'AAW, THE IMAGERY. As mentioned the arrow metaphor is definately great. It would be totally unfair if we didn't get a healing scene, especially not as one as sweet as this. LONG WAIT FOR SPOILERS THIS WEEK.

Anyway, I actually read this earlier, and yes the bribery did work. XD Shall post in a moment PFFT
_debbiechan_: destined to be_debbiechan_ on October 12th, 2009 01:51 pm (UTC)

secila80: Save the Princesssecila80 on October 12th, 2009 12:00 am (UTC)
Let her save you.

Awwww, Ishida love!!! This was so sweet. Thanks.

_debbiechan__debbiechan_ on October 12th, 2009 10:32 pm (UTC)

Thanks for catching that. I thought it'd be cool to have Orihime be the one to "save" Ishida. <3
goddychangoddychan on October 12th, 2009 12:49 am (UTC)
*thumbs up
I can totally see this happening in the manga too like this. ^_^
_debbiechan_: DAWWWWWWW_debbiechan_ on October 12th, 2009 10:33 pm (UTC)
Re: *thumbs up

Kubo-sensei won't have Ishida declaring love for anyone in thought-bubbles. That's not Ishida's style. As far as I'm concerned, though, Ishida's love has been written all over his face and in his every action toward Orihime. XD
Re: *thumbs up - goddychan on October 13th, 2009 12:11 am (UTC) (Expand)
laurie_bunter: ichirukilaurie_bunter on October 12th, 2009 03:41 pm (UTC)

More fic should be inspired by Elvis Costello songs! XXD It's an amazing coincidence but I've been listening to him repeatedly for the past few days... waah. Such a wonderful allusion. My inner Costello fangirl self weeps with joy.
_debbiechan__debbiechan_ on October 12th, 2009 10:34 pm (UTC)

Huge Elvis Costello fan here too. I could write more Bleach vignettes maybe if you give me prompts? I've always thought of Uryuu for "Alison"... well, since I've loved Uryuu. I've loved that song most of my life.